~shud i go or stay?~

go where? no where..just want to out from this hell..actually nope really like that..but want to run from this all stupid people~ yup..maybe they r stupid..but they didnt realize they r stupid~ y? becoz they tot they r gud enuf. study..get gud result for exam..but they dun think abt life~ abt responsibility~ abt people who raise them from baby till now..for so many time i talk to myself..just ignore them..u just do as a child..as long i get what i want..but till when? almost 3 months..actually almost my whole life since we transfer from penang..i carry out all the responsibility..all on my shoulders..i feel all the bad things here..but where is the gudness? maybe the best things was dad recover from sick..yup..almost 3months dad admit..a month paralysed..dad dun know who he is..what happen to him..n most important thing he said that he ready dead..he ready go to hell for punishment..he drink n eat fire from hell..he stay at jungle..he saw the big giant snake with black color n red eyes..people will say..this is the test from God..easy to say..but they dunno how i feel..from kid..till now..i learn so much abt life..learn from my side..my family..enviroment..y did all the bad things i learn? hmm..exprience is education..YES~ totally rite..to much exprience abt bad life also not gud for growth. i glad to say that i'm the 1st in siblings..or i hv nobody in my siblings..but how? shud i kill all of them? y did they didnt think abt responsibility? y did they realize it faster?? dad always say to me..they cannot think clear yet..if u dunwan to do..its ok..just dun do..but how? how could i be like that? just ignore dad same as them? the stupid fellow? dad started working today coz that stupid govment doctor didnt gv mc..so i bcme the driver..its ok..normal for me as a driver since i got my driving licence when i was 17yrs old..sent dad to ipk..then go to restaurant..go to market..then go back sending all things to restaurant..cook..went to bank..to dad office to pick up the medicine later..to hospital to take dads medicine..n meet nurse who incharge dad for some stupid things..go back to dad office to pick up him..then we go to dialysis center to register dad there..n sent dad to barbershop..back home at 6.30pm...n nobody cook rice for dad??? thats what i say they all stupid~ i cant stand n my temper ready over the limit..they know rice finish already n nobody go to buy it? damn~ shit~ n lucky i didnt hold knife or sumthing i can kill people..if not..i will feel glad to go to jail..from stay at this hell with this stupid syaitan~